I thought or two....

While going to bed last night, I had a thought.  Well, a few thoughts as to what I should be doing rather than going to sleep.  This.  This is what I do at night.  Every night.  Every single waking night.  I decided to do what I tell my youngest.  Write down all the thoughts in your head or just turn it into a story.  Yeah.  Right.  Like that's going to help alleviate all those thoughts that are dancing around so happily in my head.  I swear it's party time in my brain once the clock hits 11:00pm.  All the thoughts start jiggling and wiggling and dancing and spinning and running and and and and..... 

Sunshine.

This sun is going to mess with my albino white skin.  I happen to like my vampire shade of pale.  Really.  It's my part in making the rest of the world look more tan.
(NOT that I'm complaining of the sun.  I heart the sun.  I really do.)  Really.  a Lot.  Seriously. 

Random Stuff

Too many thoughts and words are running through my head today.  I have more writing to do, but for 3 different stories.  I'm scared to death that nothing will ever get completed.  Why is that?  Why can't I finish something?  I guess I just need to let go of something and say it's "done."  But it never is.  *sigh*  For some reason, I want to keep improving things.  House repairs, projects, stories, relationships, the children... myself.  I should have gone for that long walk this morning.  Instead I put laundry away, which increased the feeling that things are never completed.  I've been working on one story for 12 years.  TWELVE YEARS!   Will the thing ever be completed?  I doubt it.  It'll be one long run on sentence.  It will be the story that never ends.... kind of like my "to do" list.  Now I want to work in the backyard.  I have to move one bush.  But it will be a game of tetris in the backyard or like the book "If you give the mouse a cookie..."  However, it'll be more like "If you move the bush to where the playset is, you'll have to move the playset."  yadda yadda yadda. 
Rambling helps.  It's like a little spurt from a volano.  It releases just enough to ease the pressure.  In a way I'm hoping for a big explosion of kinetic energy.  But I'm betting on more build up. 

2011.1 Lists

I'm making lists. And I'm including everything that I do already so I feel like I'm accomplishing something on my list. This year, I'm writing my list of things that I want to accomplish for the month in hopes that I am proactive and not reactive. (Granted, when it comes to that point, I'm about as reactive as Chernobyl....and that is not a good thing...... for anyone...trust me.)

So for January, my list of things I want to accomplish is as follows:
*read
*write at least 2000 words a week (500 words 4 times a week)
*excercise
*finish de-hoarding my house
*the normal stuff: laundry, vacuum, clean/dust bathrooms, etc.
*acknowledge the kids and the husband at least once a day
*Smile more :)
*take the dog for a walk 3 times a week
*keep up on the calendar (both filling it in and making it to appts w/o forgetting (sorry E & N)

I'm sure I'll forget things. That's just how my mind operates, er rather, doesn't, at this point. No resolutions this year. Can't remember what they are/were anyway. Hopefully I remember to look at this list so I know what I'm supposed to be doing. And if I forget something, well, guess I'll have to suit up for another Chernobyl meltdown....